16/05/2026
It all started first year college. I really believed in that “love at first sight” thing. I adored you from afar, but I never had the courage to actually magpapansin saimo. Then one day, one of my closest friends told us na he already had someone special... and it happened to be you. Honestly, that hurt me a lot. Torpe mode jud ko, even if extrovert man unta ko, pero when it comes to you, dijud jud nako makaya. My shyness always wins. That time, I thought maybe we’re just not meant to be. So I tried to move on. College life was super busy anyway man sab sa exams palang, activities, events inside and outside school so my attention got diverted.
Fast forward to 2nd year, 2nd sem. I saw you walking in the hallway while we were rehearsing for our upcoming performance. Ambot ngano, pero all the feelings from first year came rushing back. My world literally spun around you again. Even if we’re in the same program, lisod jud makit-an ka since we don’t share classes or schedules. That’s why seeing you felt so rare and so special. And now, my feelings just keep growing. Even when I’m busy with exams or event rehearsals you still manage to sneak into my thoughts. My friends already know I like you, even gani ikaw kabalo na since giingnan ka nila HAHAHAHAHAHAH mga papansin jud.
Then one day, a friend told me something. Random lang, but said you mentioned nga “okayhan daw ka nako.” Of course, gikilig ko. But then added, “pero dili lang jud daw ka kay friend ka sa iyang ex.” That hit me hard. I understood the situation if I were in your place, maybe I’d feel the same. But what can I do? I can’t just tell my feelings to go away. Every time I see you, it grows even more, even if I already know why we can’t be together.
I even tried chatting you sometimes usually when I’m drunk, because that’s the only time my confidence shows up HAHAHA. But when I’m sober again, grabe jud akong kaulaw sa akong gibuhat. So now, I just react to your posts, your notes, your story and stalk your status everyday. I know you don’t like me back, but let me adore you until these feelings fade. I know you can’t reciprocate, so pasagdi lang ko. Bahala na ko sa akong kaugalingon. Anyway, 3rd year is coming soon, and maybe by then, mawala ra ni. Time will take care of it, siguro.
— on Churv
