04/29/2024
27 organizations, hours upon hours of telephone calls, meetings and the expenses of time and postage meeting the requests made of me, and the cultural trend of ghosting has seemingly hit the systems that are "helpers" of people. If there is a criteria that renders my requests not eligable, written notifiction is suitable. Of 27 organizations I received paperwork for a zero percent loan, and an application from another for a similar arrangement indiating it could take years to get help even though i qualify for it. Feeling kicked to the currb by "organizations" . If my interpretation is right. 7 cups reversed, 5 of swords (ouch), king of cups followed by the Magician lead me to interpret that I'm in the process of checking all that emotional baggage at the curb, not even the door where it has made its way close to me, the curb where it belongs. The Hawk has been an amazing spirit animal for well over 10 years, guidiing me to see situations for what they are when the debris of the cluttered lens casts a different vissual. I remind myself of a saying that I wrote down years ago. "Change is hard in the beginning, messy in the middle, worth it in the end." The clouds are passing, keep on going, I've got work to do.
